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When Christ came into my life, He gave me a passion to know Him intimately. I would meet with friends early in the morning and seek the face of God and read the Scriptures. Those were days of immense joy in my life. The aroma of those prayer meetings still linger in my heart, even though it's been 35 years since those early seasons of prayer.
Several months after
coming to know Christ, I left Louisiana
State University
to study at a Christian school. I desired to know more of the Bible and longed
to be used of God. The new school where I studied had a rule concerning
cheating on exams. If someone was caught cheating, he could be placed out of
the school. Before I came to Christ, I had often cheated on my exams. However,
that ceased to be a problem since I had found a new life in Christ.
While studying at the
Christian school, I had many wonderful times in prayer. I often met with God in
special seasons of prayer. But one day, I had a biology exam. I studied much
for the test. But when I took the examination, there was one answer to a
question that I couldn't recall. I knew the answer, but it seemed to escape my
memory. A friend saw my dilemma. He quietly turned his paper so that I could see
his answer. When I saw what he had written, I quickly wrote down the answer. I
rationalized what I had done by saying that I had studied and that I really
knew the answer any way. It didn't really matter, I thought.
However, when I returned
to my secret place of prayer, it seemed as though God was nowhere to be found.
I had lost the joy and intimacy of my prayer life. I wrestled with God over
what I had done. He seemed to be saying to my heart, "If you want intimacy
with Me, then you're going to have to confess to your professor that you
cheated on your examination."
I argued with God,
"You don't seem to understand. This is a Christian school. I could be put
out of this school if I confess this." The heavens were silent and God's
presence appeared to be far away. Finally, I couldn't stand it any longer. I
wanted God more than I wanted a good name. I wanted to know Him more than I
wanted to study at that school. I wanted intimacy with the Father more than
anything in life. I decided to go to the professor and confess what I had done.
After I told the
professor what had happened, he said, "I knew that. I saw you. But I'm
going to give you a second chance." I went back to my dorm room rejoicing.
I knew the forgiveness and cleansing of the Savior. When I returned to that
secret place of prayer, I rediscovered the wonderful blessing of God's manifest
presence.
As I look back on that
experience, I realize that I almost traded intimacy with God for a good mark on
my exam. I'm afraid that's exactly what's transpired in the hearts of many
believers. They once had sweet fellowship with God, but have lost it. They've
traded the passing pleasure of some secret sin for deep intimacy with their God
and Savior. God is holy. Psalm 24 says that if we're going to enter into His
presence, then we must come with clean hands and a pure heart. You can't hold
on to a holy God with dirty hands. God told Moses to take the sandals off his
feet when he encountered God. What do you need to remove from your life in
order to stand on holy ground? What ever it might be, it's not worth keeping.
The greatest joy you'll ever know is intimacy with God. That requires that you
remove anything that stands between you and holy ground.
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